For years, in case I failed to mention before, I have been steadily getting more and more tired, apathetic, and incapable of focusing or remembering things. My doctor back home kept trying to tell me I was depressed or had sleep apnea and threw anti-depressants at me. But because she never actually took the time to listen or run any tests, of course those were not working, but rather, made things worse because she was WRONG!! Anyway, so on the insistence of my boyfriend (wow, yes it is true, I ACTUALLY have one now), I went to his doctor. My boyfriend is an EMT and his mom works with the medical industry so he and his family know many people in the medical field in the area I go to college. Anyway, it turns out that my lack of energy, brain power, and will to do things has all resulted from a build up of sleep deprivation from insomnia. Or, at least, that is what my new and much more knowledgeable doctor says. After many blood tests and a sleep lab (look it up, it's not pretty) it seems that, though I can fall asleep, I do not stay asleep. Thus, long term sleep deprivation.

I'll admit, I'm pretty scared to take sleeping pills but if all goes well I should be back to my normal, curious, energetic, smart self and actually feel like getting back to all the things I liked to do like photography, photo-manipulation, and web design. Speaking of which, I got into the Grad School I wanted to get into for Information Technology with a concentration in Web Design I'm super excited!!!

Anyway, now back to actually doing my job

~Ry